Wednesday, 19 August 2015

Take the Good with the Bad

Last week was not a good week. Last week was a "cry and wish I was dead" kind of week. I don't often get that dramatic, but I was in such horrific pain that I really did want to just die a temporary death until the pain was gone.

Sadly that isn't possible though, and I endured the pain all week long. If I had been at my last job, I probably would have called in sick for the week and just accepted that it was better for me to stay in bed and rest than to waste their time having me there. Unfortunately that didn't feel like an option this time as I am in a new job and still on probation.

Whilst my job is aware of my health issue, after all they allow me time out to go to my hydrotherapy appointments, I still do not feel it is well tolerated. They are supportive and say all the things they have to say (thank goodness for discrimination in the workplace laws) but as a whole I feel that calling in sick for it would probably not be graciously accepted, they would tolerate it but not if it became a regular occurrence - and by regular I mean once every 3-6 months.

So, I dragged my sorry butt into work every day last week. I was emotionally and physically exhausted. I cried nearly every evening because I was so tired and in so much pain. It was not a pleasant experience.

Needless to say though, this week is - so far - a good week. My pain levels are low. My tiredness levels are average. I haven't cried yet this week. Okay, well maybe once, but that was about something unrelated.

Anyone who met me this week would probably have absolutely no idea that I am as sick as I am. Anyone who met me last week probably thought I was the world's grumpiest bitch who couldn't walk like a normal person. It's funny how things can change in just a few days.

What I have learnt from this is all though is that I need to try and figure out a job I can do from home and still make the same amount of money from. I genuinely do not think I have the energy to continue to work full time and have to actually physically get up and go into an office everyday. I'm reaching a point where I struggle to even brush my own hair every day. So, the hunt for a run from home business begins.

Wednesday, 5 August 2015

Hydrotherapy Part 2

Not too long ago, I blogged about how I was going to be starting a course of hydrotherapy treatment to try and assist with my pain, So far, it's inconclusive, but this is due to my first appointment being cancelled and rescheduled 2 weeks later, my new first appointment and second appointment going ahead, and then my third appointment being cancelled for an indefinite period at the moment.

None the less, I thought I should write about it, because from the 2 appointments I've had so far, I'm intrigued and looking forward to actually have continuous appointments, They are hard work these appointments, don't get me wrong, but the results so far have been promising. After both appointments, I've had to go straight into work and do my job as normal; I've come home, cooked dinner and then go to bed. And both times I've slept straight through the night and not had any issues during the night (only when it comes to waking the next day - but this is a forever issue)!

After both appointments I've also been able to go the whole day without pain medication. It would seem that that 20+ minutes in a really beautifully warm swimming pool does help ease my pain.

Needless to say, I was therefore gutted when I received a phone call the afternoon before my next hydrotherapy appointment, advising me they would have to cancel. A pipe had burst in the pool and it's going to be at least 2 weeks before it's fixed. Devastated would actually probably be a slightly more accurate description of my emotions.

Hopefully, once the pool is back up and running I'll be able to get into a routine again with going, and really start to see some long term growth rather than just the short term, as quite frankly I need a holiday from my pain levels right now.

And now, because I've not posted a picture in a while, and because I need a little pick me up, here's a picture of a fluffy bunny found on Google: